Sickening to think.

When did I stop trying to defend myself.
where did My dignity go?
when did I let you push Me around
I never really knew You did I?
So I can't really tell when this change came.
but Who I thought I knew, is NOT this person Who is standing
before Me with His fists up as if the worlds out to get Him.
I am not weak,
I am Strong.I just forgot I had a voice for a moment there.
When did I forget.
Oh I remember.
The first time You made Me feel like the leftover dirt
on the bottom of Your shoe.
that's right.
I acted like dirt.
it doesn't mean I am dirt.
This feeling like I can't measure up is sickening.
and You're the flu that's causing it.
You're making me nauseous with My own stupidity that I
would think so low of Myself.
I can't figure this out but what's starting now is Myself
changing back to whom My best friend says I am.
No He doesn't define me. but He sure as heck helps Me with
realizing the truth.