exploding at the seems

I hate when You ignore. I hate when I don't matter.
I hate when I have to respond to You or I feel really bad.
I hate that You're all that matters to me.
I hate that You know everything
I hate that If you didn't know everything, I'd explode.
I hate that You think You can just do this.
I hate that You know I'll always love You.
I hate that You make me love you.
I hate that You know You make Me love You.

My birthday was last night.

So now I can sing this!

"I AM 16 GOING ON 17 BABY (something, something...fdghkdsgk) "

Fault 6??

I am afraid of growing up.
I don't want to die on a death bed, knowing it's going to happen.
I don't want to reminisce over everything wrong/good I've ever done.
though I would like a chance to say goodbye.
but, I rather die really fast so there's no doubting before.
because I know, I will psych myself out...