Number 5

Fault #5 I know that if You died, I would die (inside)

Fault #4

Fault #4

I want people to hate Me when I hate Myself.

as I watch everything turn to grey.
I never thought it'd end this way.
lots of scents and used tissues
a lot of pain. smiles, with nothing to say
after it. I couldv'e sworn you promised to never leave.
it's not Your fault you were taken away.
but yet,I long for You at night.
but You're not here. and I know it's wrong to curse at the sky.


You are the person I never realized.
You are the one who I never wanted to say goodbye
You are the only one who knew Me.
You are the comforting wind when I cry.
You always found a way to make Me laugh.
and I never second guessed if You weren't here.
I Love You.


Watching as people try to bring Me comfort.
never caring before now.
as I watch as they reassure Your safety.
I never thought any different.
...TBC

Fault 3

Fault #3

I don't think before I speak.

I don't think I deserve this.
what would it take for you to listen
what would it take for you be in this forever,
I need You. I need You.
You didn't care. Now I'm here listening to You
and I can't help but think where were You.
I've been replaced by this Girl, Just a pretty face.
I'm simply erased by You.

Fault 2.

Fault #2.
I worry way to much.
I worry about worrying.
It's not fear as much.
more expectations i want to be met out of everything.

Fault #1

Fault number 1. : I let people get to Me.

If I die young,Tell Him I loved Him all along.
If I die young,Tell My mother, I always thought She was the most beautiful.
If I die young,Tell My sister She doesn't have to measure up to anyone.
If I die young tell My Grandma Jesus is waiting.
If I die young tell My father I admired His strength.
If I die young tell My friends You held Me together.
If I die young,tell My best friend He's the Most amazing person, and I loved Him.
If I die young bury Me with anything I've ever written.
If I die young give Him the letters.
If I die young let My mother know.
If I die young, Cry for a day and then only think of Me without tears.
If I die young. I loved You all.

''Leave Me like this.''

Realizing not everything is what we dream.
not everything comes back to haunt us.
but what does sends a chill down my spine
there's no one there but i hear noises,
come on,don't leave me alone like this.
i thought i had you figured out.
now turning your back, i can see the knife you were ready
to throw at mine.
I'm leaving you alone.
you don't want to show how afraid you are
you don't want to believe that i really know you.
you are a scared little person,with a mess of a dreamer
who cares for you.
but you don't accept i know everything
you're afraid to let people in.
you're afraid.
you're angry.
and now,You're alone by choice.
i bet that feels great.

The snow is somber.